I know what Im doing now, and Im quite excited about it.
I have quite a clear idea in my head of how I want things to turn out, and little jobs Im giving myself along the way.
So today was good...even if most of it was spent in the car, today was good.

I had one of the most human days ive had in a long time...I think it was much needed to bring me back down to earth after the start of a lovely and surreal year.
Really the only thing I want to say, that I need to say is that someone said something absolutely lovely to me today, and it internalized in such a way that it nearly felt like a weight traveling deep down into my core.
but it wasn't said in such a way. it was whispered, breathed out. and often times, those humble little words are the ones that mean the most and stay with us longest.
"Your like our big sister"

thats all.

its nice to feel like you belong.

recap the 2nd

Yesterday was one of those, "things don't get much better then this" days. Got up, put on one of my favorite dresses (which makes me look like an vibrant bluebird, if you don't mind). Did some finishing touches to Jane's birthday present, and donned my lovely winter coat to set off for the totally impromptu, surprise landing, of this little bird, on the doorstep of the Page's home, heralding a short poem I came up with on the way (thinking that the 2nd was Jane's birthday, when it was actually yesterday 0.0) 

The walk over was lovely and much needed. It was so nice to stretch out my legs and get some pace up because walking the dogs down the fields doesn't really cut it for exercise to be honest. 

I was met at the door with excited Zara and Towser, that always greet me first before anyone else, and seemingly Pat was saying, that the two of them came bounding from all different directions a split second before I turned the key in the door. Such a lovely way to be welcomed...happy happy dogs :)

Then Jane with open arms, which I refused, in order to give my little verse some breathing space...quite funny that I got the dates mixed up...a bit typical of me, but its the thought that counts really, isn't it? :)

Pat, lovely as ever, was there...and to warm my bones, a hot port was speedily served up, and then we all 3 snuggled down and awaited the arrival of Meabh's guests.

I tell ya...for there not being a party, to there being a full blow party that could nearly rival any Carroll Shindig...we had Italian Champagne, more hot ports, peppermint tea, fruit flan, kinder bueno, and on top of all that, a full spread of crusty bread, mixed salad leaves, mature white cheddar, mozzarella, tomatoes, cucumber, beetroot, this lovely salad dressing that had fresh garlic thinly sliced in it...among other goodies...It was simply divine !

Then myself, Aidan, Jane, Pat and her husband Ron, settled down in the living room to watch The Moon and the Sledgehammer which was so interesting...I didn't want it to end. Towser tried his luck numerous times to get up on the couch, where there was literally no room for a gerbil, nevermind a fully grown male whippet...the lovely thing that he is (^_^)

So So nice.

AND...I get to hang out with the kids either Friday or Saturday, which should be good fun as we all get on really well :D

Eoghain, being as good as gold, picked me up on his way home, after midnight, when it really was Jane's birthday...so it was nice to actually be able to say Happy Birthday...seeing as I had mucked it up earlier :)

AND...then, Jane rang me today...and among other things, she told me that I was absolutely glowing yesterday, which was such a nice thing to be told. I think we notice when someone is not ok, or their in fowl humor...and we ask what is troubling them, or what their problem is, or we steer clear of them...We often down take stock of someone when they are happy...or cheery...because we sort of just expect that everyone should be happy, that when we do see it, we don't pay any attention. So I really appreciated that she rang to tell me that...what did she say...it was so lovely...I think it was something along the lines of..."you were warm...and very tactile...and...you would make someone want to sit with you..."

I like that last little bit the best...that made my day

Thank you Jane 

<3

Make Me Merry Monday

"Those new genetically modified organic chickens are off the tits!!!"

Picture the scene...Im running in and out of the kitchen, tending to the main meal of the evening...juggling roast veg and brussels sprouts with helping Eoghain with his website layout. Letting the cats in and out, answering Dad's phone, which he constantly forgets to bring with him...playing around with the tablet and talking to Jane on the dog and bone.

After I put the carrots and parsnips into the oven to roast, I decided it would be as good a time as any to baste the chicken...not totally essential, but its a nice thing to do...

Lift the tin foil off to reveal that!

And in a split second of pure blonde stupidity I didn't cop that the two protruding bulges were half lemons 0.0

I am soooooo dim sometimes, I shock myself

But the chicken shocked me, so I started laughing hysterically and nearly let that damn thing slide out of the oven...but not quite.

It totally took me by surprise and had me in fits of giggles all night.

And before you say anything, it was mother's doing.

You wouldn't think she'd be capable of something like that, would you??

Pure Devilment :D

"Today"

New Year's Highlights

My outfit

Sing song round the kitchen table

Mum leading the choir

(from left to right: Monica, Peg, Ursela, Lil and Mum-with guitar)

January 1st 2011

Always Believe

It's not about being positive, or being negative.

It's about belief

Belief in the possibility that things could get better

That they hold within them, the potential to turn around and surprise you.

That things will get better.

It has nothing to do with being positive.

You don't have to go around smiling at every Tom, Dick and Harry all day,

Hopeing that that might change your fate...

But we all know that a smile goes a long way, and its not going to crack your face now, is it?

So you mite as well, right?

Besides...everyone looks better when they smile :)

After not getting to bed till about 5 this morning, I didn't bother setting my alarm.

I believed that Liudas would give me fair warning before popping in, he always does.

So, when his txt woke me at 10 past 12, saying he would be there in an hour or so, it gave me plenty of time to get up, and get dressed.

There's something about the Christmas Period...everyone wants to look nice, don't they?

We all want to look our absolute best...or at least I do. I'll speak for myself so. I don't think there has been one day since all the festivities began, where I have not worn some form of heel...and some little frock...carefully picked...more carefully then I would normally, anyway. 

And today, the first day of the year, was no different.

It is nice, to look nice, after all.

The first thing I saw when I looked out the kitchen window this morning was two magpies, sitting on the drive, side by side...

Two for Joy

I knew that it would be a flying visit, as it always is, so when the dogs started barking, I went out to meet the car. Dad called after me, to make sure that Liudas actually entered the house. 

It's good luck, for the first visitor you receive on New Year's Day, to be a man...and even better luck if he doesn't have red hair. So bearing that in mind, eventhough Liudas lept out of the car with gift in hand, looking like he was about to turn on his heel to make his escape (^_^) I insisted he at least cross the threshold, because mum and dad believed it to be good luck. And good luck is a nice thing to enter a home...

I went for a walk down to the river today with the dogs...just leading into dusk. 

I cant honestly remember the last time I went for a walk with them...with the weather we've been having lately, it is lovely to look at, but a bit dangerous to be walking the fields in.

I really enjoyed it tho. I love sticking my docs on (shoes that hardly ever see the light of day) to tramp down the damp grass. Everything looked so green this evening...and the dogwood and briars were so red...the contrast...well I just couldn't get over it.

And there was a split second where I thought a cuckoo...but after listening on awhile, 

I realized my ears were playing tricks on me...its far too early for cuckoos!

I caught the second half of The Prisoner of Azkaban...and the second half of Wall. E which had me teary eyed at the end...I will get it, the next time I see it somewhere and watch it from start to finish...Such a good second half of a movie...Im sure the first half must have been just as good ;)

Then, because my parents (namely father) are feeling worse for ware after last night, they went to bed between 8 and 9...so...with just myself for company, I watched the BBC's version of Oliver that Jane lent me a little while ago.

O.M.G

What a fantastic version.

No singing, No dancing.

It was proper, on the edge of your seat stuff.

And I did NOT want it to end...

Another dvd going on the wish list.

So, all in all...

Ive had a very nice first day of the year. 

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364 more, blissful, wonderful, happy, productive days left !

:)

pathetic fallacy

You could not be more spot on today, if you tried